Greetings from nienna
A place for me to muse, rant and mutter to herself.
Remember that these are my thoughts and may not always jive with your own. Note: This blog contains Adult Material and is not suited for those under 18 years of age.
nienna
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You know, its not like this is something that is new to me or anything. Every woman knows that men in general are assholes. But every once in a while it really comes to a head. For example. Tonight i get home from work and am asked if i want to go to a BBQ at a friend's place this weekend. In all honestly no i dont. Its not that i dont like this person because i do. i like her a great deal. i simply hate the country and already had plans for the weekend. Or so i had thought. It seems Ice wants to go to this BBQ and without so much as asking me said we would go. He asked when i got home and i wasnt really given the option to say no. So fine, He can go, i dont want to. There are things here i wanted to do. Yet it would appear that my wants and needs do not matter. No one seems to care what i wanted to do, as long as everyone else is happy and gets to do what they want, well thats ok.
To make matters worse, things online arent going well, at least for me. Ice is happy as a clam with it, so is everyone else. Yet after the horseshit with Ice's affair with CrystalBlue. Oh yes i am naming names. i'm not protecting anyone anymore. When i'm told its over, suddenly i'm being treated like shit online by CyrstalBlue. Ignored and not consulted on anything to do with the site. Now. Seeing as i did absolutely NOTHING wrong in this whole farse, i will not be the one to make nice. She should be the one coming to me, making ammends and treating me like what i am. Not only Ice's future wife, but also a co-owner of that site. But it seems that yet again, i get the shit end of the stick. She sucks Ice's ass all over the place and gets, to my way of thinking, way too familiar with Him. i'm not taking away from the fact that she has done alot of work on the server, she has. She has put alot of time and effort into it. That however does not excuse the behavior that i am being subjected to. But yet again as long as everyone else is happy, angel gets pissed on. Lovely.
i refuse to be treated in this manner. i have told Ice that if the problem isnt fixed soon, and i will NOT be the one who will be doing the fixing, that i will leave as co-onwer and post why i am doing so on the sites forum. i dont give a flying fuck who gets pissy about it. i should not have to put up with being treated like that when i am the one who was wronged. No one else. i was lied to and betrayed by someone i once considered a friend. Someone who was well aware of my feelings regarding online relationships. That i did not agree with them and i wouldnt knowingly share my Man. Nor give my blessing.
So yet again Ice and i are in a huge fight over this and as always i'll be the one who gets fucked. Perfect!