Greetings from nienna
A place for me to muse, rant and mutter to herself.
Remember that these are my thoughts and may not always jive with your own. Note: This blog contains Adult Material and is not suited for those under 18 years of age.
nienna
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Let me start this off by bringing to the forefront my pleasant shock and surprise at the response i have gotten after only one post. i can say in all honesty that i did not expect it and am very appreciative of it. Especially after making the blog rounds and seeing the unrest that is going on. i will say now that i refuse to allow myself to get caught up in it. i refuse to take sides or backlash. i choose and make my friends after i decide the qualities i look for in a friend are there. i dont have the time for alliances or the like. Hell i barely have time to sleep at night these days. With one wedding only 8 weeks off and my own a mere 7 months away. YIKES!!
There are those to whom i will not speak. For my own reasons. i dont trust easily and when its broken its gone for good. Once bitten, twice shy and all that jazz.
Thank you D for you kind comments. It speaks for both of us how far we have come. i dont think i'll speak with you often as your always sleeping when i'm online, but feel free to hit me up if you happen to see me around. i will be pleased to have my blog added to your's and will return the favor with your permission of course. You can add me to MSN if you wish as well. i wasnt aware of your upcoming nuptuals so congratulations.
If i may here for a second. After everything thats happened in the past. To see that D and myself can say a kind word to eachother and frequent eachother's blogs. Well makes you wonder why others cant let bygones be bygones. For myself i suppose its just that i'm tired. Tired of always being on alert, of being tense online when i should be relaxing. Tired of never knowing who to trust, who its ok to speak with etc etc. i just dont have the attention span to keep up with it all. So i'll just go along my merry way and read whoever is interesting at the time. i dont have alot of spare time to devote to online so that should keep it even easier.
With Ice having the new server, it's been nice to see old friends again. i admit i was leary. Not eager to invite more trouble into O/our lives, but this was something He really wanted. So far so good. Only a few small bumps in the road that have been smoothed over with a minium of fuss.
On a more personal note. i have to say that lately i'm the happiest i've been in a long time. i'm comfortable where i am and with who i am. i have good friends and a family who loves me. Even if they aren't my family by blood, they are more family then my own is. More supportive and understanding then i could have hoped for. Hell i'm a bridesmaid for Ice's ex wife's wedding. That should tell you something right there. And she is my maid of honor. Funny how life works. She's probably the best friend i have ever had, and she's Ice's ex. *chuckles over that*
i supposed i've rambled on long enough about nothing. So for now i'll bid you ado. Until later.
