Greetings from nienna
A place for me to muse, rant and mutter to herself.
Remember that these are my thoughts and may not always jive with your own. Note: This blog contains Adult Material and is not suited for those under 18 years of age.
nienna
xxx
Its the call everyone knows one day may come. Yet pray it never does. i got such a call today while i was at work. It was C calling to tell me Ice had just been rushed to the hospital via ambulance with a possible heart attack.
Fear raced through me like an icey knife into my heart. i didnt even explain to my boss, just said, "i have to go now!". He understood and i ran. It seemed to take forever to get to the hospital. Imagine my surpirse to find Him trying to leave! Ok ok, i understand He hates hospitals, but for the love of God it was a heart attack. i tried in vain for 20 minutes to convince Him to go back in and get the tests done that they wanted to perform. i hate needles too but if i have to have blood taken i suck it up. C showed up and thank God for her. She was able to force Him back when my tears and sobs did nothing. She has known Him longer and knows how to handle Him with hospitals.
Finally He went back in, then the waiting started. God it was an eternity. He got frustrated and kept threatening to leave, until we told Him the kids were terrified and wanted to know Daddy was ok. So He stayed. When He was finally called in i had to wait before i could go see Him. i stayed with Him through the dreaded blood tests and x-rays.
Thankfully it wasnt a heart attack, He has the early beginnings of pneumonia. Now C and i still think He had a small "warning" heart attack, because: 1. He had massive chest pains and shortness of breath. 2. His arm tingled and went numb. So if the meds dont take care of the chest pains in a few days, we're taking Him back to a clinic and having more tests run on His heart.
So after having the fear of God put into Him, He's agreed to start living a little better lifestyle. Cut back on the smoking and beer, going for more walks with me for excersize. He's not allowed to die before the wedding.
Now that we're home and He's tucked into bed with dinner and Gatorade, i'm exhausted. Emotionally and physically. my eyes hurt from crying, cause when i first saw Him i just fell into His arms in tears. All i want is to crawl into bed beside Him and feel His arms around me with my head on His chest so i can hear His heart beating. i will give updates as they come.
Until later.
Always His angel[IW]
Posted at 7:16 PM
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Saturday, July 29, 2006
-Missing You-
Today was a bit of a rough day for me. Dont get me wrong. Work was fine, kept me busy. It was while i was at work that a lady came in. She was a nice enough lady and it really isnt her fault. As soon as i got closer to her, all i could smell was my mom. i had to do a doubletake to make sure it wasnt her, thats how much she smelled like her. Everyone knows smell is the strongest memory trigger.
Now, for those of you who dont know. my mom and i arent exactly on speaking terms. She doesnt approve of my choice of Man. And i let her know in no uncertian terms, that He is my choice and whether she likes it or not, He is who i want.
Its a complicated story. For whatever reason when they met it was like oil and water. She hated Him on site and He felt the same. Perhaps its because they are so much alike. As much as they would both dispute that fact. They are. Its hard to explain. Mom has always been very protective of me. i am an only child, so i guess she had a hard time letting go. And Ice was the One to teach me to stand up for myself, not to sit ideally by while others decided my future for me. To open my mouth if something is bothering me or pissing me off. And that didnt go over well with mom. Suddenly He is brainwashing me etc etc. Totally off the wall things like that.
He is no better though. i cant mention my mother without Him making some kind of nasty little comment. Which He knows bothers me, cause for all her faults, she is still my mom. i love her regardless, even when she pisses me off.
That final straw was a couple of years ago. She and i got into a physical fight because i refused to abide by what she wanted. i was going to do what i wanted whether she liked it or not. Its never been the same for she and i since then. A little over a year ago, Ice and i split up for a short while. i moved back home to another town with my mom. i had started seeing a therapist, in hopes of helping me deal with the grief and anger over O/our break up. She advised me to start a journal, to write everything down. i did and it started to help. i could see things more clearly and make more sense of my emotions. One day while i was out, my mother read it. She called my cell and started screaming at me.
To back track a little here, i had written private things about myself in there. About my being submissive and missing my Dom. Something my mother knew nothing about. Now i know why i never spoke to her about it. She didnt handle it well.
She yelled that no daughter of her's would bow to any Man, wear a "dog collar like an animal" or call any Man Master. She told me to pack my things and be gone within the week. i was hysterical. my privacy and trust had been violated beyond forgiveness and i had only 1 person to whom i could speak. Ice. Even while W/we were split up W/we still talked. Via email or on the phone. i knew no matter what i could always turn to Him. And so i did. He told me not to worry, that i would have a place to go. That is how i ended up where i am. And i'm very happy here. These people have taken me in and given me a new and second family that i love and adore.
So i packed my things and i left. Leaving her a note as to why i was leaving and finally getting out alot of things that had built up over the years. It didnt go over well. That was over a year ago now. i've spoken to her once. After her hip surgery for Mother's Day. Its not that i havent tried to keep contact. i sent cards for every occassion and called when i could, but always got the machine. i left my number and my address. The only one who contacted me was my grandmother. my own mother didnt even send me a Christmas or Birthday card. Ice is still livid over that to this day and my birthday is in February. It breaks my heart that she refuses to give in just a little.
So when this lady came in to work today, smelling exactly like my mother. i nearly burst into tears. All i could see was me as a child cuddled up to her before school each morning. Or laughing over something in a book we both read. Shopping together, all those mother/daughter things. Ice said i should call her, if only to hear her voice. i told Him i'd think about it. The last time i called she was cold and distant. i dont want to ruin the memories the scent brought back by having that kind of conversation. So tonight i think i'll just sit, have a glass of wine and be mellow.
Until later.
Always His angel[IW]
Posted at 2:56 PM
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Friday, July 28, 2006
-Confused-
You know, i love D's blog. Why? Cause she isnt afraid to speak her mind and doesnt give a flying fuck what anyone thinks of it. i love that about her. Her last few posts just tickled me. i know who she's speaking of. Not personally but i've read this person's blog. i find it an interesting read. i just love D's view on things. i have to admit i agree with what she's saying. It does seem unlike that someone can be that....how to put this delicately...niave? Yes thats the word i'm looking for.
As for myself, your damn right i know what Ice does for a living. i know some of His co-workers. i may not understand alot of what He does, but i at least know what His job entails. It's called conversation. We like talking together, about everything, including His work. Oh sure i just sit there at times and nod attentively and murmer agreements where i think they should go, but that is because i dont understand what He does. i know He helps people fix their computers. Do i know how or what it takes to reset and fix a spazzing harddrive or video card? Hell no. Not a clue what He's talking about. But i listen anyways. i ask questions and try to figure it out. Just like He asks about my day at work. He may not be overly interested in what i did that day or what my job entails, but He shows an interest. Why?
Oh dear lord, could it possibly be because He is interested in me? Interested in my day and what happened.
From reading this other blog, it appears, at least to me, that this couple doesnt speak on a personal level. Perhaps i'm wrong in that assumption. If i am then i will say i am. But that is the impression i am getting. i dont understand how a couple can be together for any length of time and not talk about their daily activities. i dont report to Ice about my day. i talk to Him about it. Same as He does with me. Its give and take. A partnership. i may be His submissive, but i am also His partner, future wife and step-mother to His children. i couldnt fathom not talking to Him about everything. There is nothing i'm not willing to talk about. Be it my past or the fact that i had a fight with His daughter the other night. He's always there for me to talk to. As i am for Him. We may not always agree, but at least we talk.
i couldnt imagine living without that. Not knowing what He did during the day or what His interests were. It would be like living with a stranger. And whats the point of being with someone if you think of them as a stranger, only to be associated with sex and BDSM-type beatings. i'm a person who needs intellectual stimulation. And He gives me that. He's always saying i'm the smartest person He knows. That i know something about almost anything. Well i read alot. LOL
He teaches me about His work with computers. And i teach Him about one of my passions. Horses. Something He knew nothing, literally, nothing about. Now? If there is something about horses on TV or in life, He can look at me and say, that one is a bay Quarter horse. He shows an interest in the things that interest me. So i just dont get how people can be together and not share everything.
As for knowing where He works. Well shit i have to. What if there was an emergency? i have an accident at work, one of the kids gets too rough horsing around and one of them breaks an arm? i have to be able to get ahold of Him. If He were to tell me i couldnt know those things. For myself, i'd start to wonder. What is He hiding from me? Why am i not allowed to know where He works? It would just scream something fishy is going on here.
As for the kids. Well they are aware of what their Father is as well as what i am. They know and understand that He and i are Master and sub as well as Dad and K. They are mature intellegent kids who know what BDSM is, maybe not the little details, but they get the basics. They actually think its cool, weird and kinky, but cool. They know i have a collar, they just dont see me wearing it. To them, that side of Us doesnt matter. Its just part of who we are. We arent that way infront of them. Only Dad and K. That side of Us is reserved for private time. But We are always upfront and honest with them.
And so to D. Amen hon. Shout your heart out. i for one love it. i may not be quite as bold as you. But i adore that you are who you are and you dont give a fuck what anyone else thinks. You give voice to what others, those who whine and slag you off i'm sure are in there too, are too shy, afraid or polite to say. i'll stand shoulder to shoulder with you and cheer you on.
To my Love, my Husband, my Soulmate, my Wolf and my Lord. Thank You. For being You, the One i can talk to about anything, anytime, anywhere. Thank You for showing an interest in me as well. Not just my body, but my mind as well.
Until later,
Always His angel[IW]
Posted at 7:11 PM
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Thursday, July 27, 2006
-Thursday Blahs-
Have you ever had one of those days where you want to write but as soon as you try your mind goes blank. i'm having one of those days. i'm sure there was something i wanted to write about but i cant think of a damn thing. i suppose i could fill the page with blah blah blah's, but boy would that be boring after a minute or 2.
i've been dabbling with PSPx for a few days now. Trying to get the hang of this new version. The image above is one i doctored with PSP...adding a few shaded colours here and there. Its something i used to do awhile back. Doctoring images and changing or shifting other parts of it. With the pages i'm going to work on, i thought it time to start messing with it again. It's great for graphic design and artwork. The new one does take some getting used to though.
Ice is making a bid to have a shift change at work. He finds out a little later this evening. i hope He gets the early shift. As it stands right now, i'm asleep when He gets home from work and He's sleeping when i leave for work. i've barely seen Him for the last few weeks. If He gets this new shift we would leave roughly at the same time every morning and get home together. OMG a normal life? Can it be so? i'll know soon enough.
i'm planning on enrolling in a correspondence course tomorrow. The legal assistant one. It's something i've been wanting to do for awhile now. Just have never had the money to. Ice is not insisting that i do this. He told me i'm not to put it off anymore. He knows i hate my job and want something better. Something that interests me and will take me places. Working in a law firm would certianly do that. It would mean better money too. Which of course is always a bonus, especially with the wedding only a year away.
Speaking of weddings, i'm going to pick up my bridesmaid dress for C's wedding tomorrow. Its a lovely navy blue stapless number that i can wear again to some other function. Thank God for that. LOL
Anyways, i know i've been all over the place with this post. i cant seem to focus in any one direction tonight. my mind just keeps racing from one thing to the next. All the things i need to do within the next year. Take my courses and get my diploma, get a new and better job with better pay and benifits. Oh yea, plan a wedding and get married, go on my honeymoon. Oy its gonna be a busy year. Any out there willing to help me keep my sanity in tact. Please apply here.
i was wondering blogland this evening and something hit me. In every submissive/slave blog i came across there were posts about girls who have a set schedual of things to follow each day. Perhaps its just me but i just dont understand it. Do these girls need to be monitored so closely? Are they that incapable of thinking and doing for themselves? Or is it that the Masters are the issue. Insecure or insanely controlling. i dont know, all i know is that would drive me batty.
One i came across spoke of how she was to kneel for an hour every morning before work. Maybe its just me, i must be a bad sub because i dont kneel. Not because i dont want to kneel at His feet or that He doesnt want me to, its because i physically cant do it. i used to ride horses, i trained for several years and showed competitively as well. It takes its toll on your body. For me it was my knees and back. Kneeling for more then a moment or 2 is torture for me. Kneeling for 5 minutes and i cant get to my feet without help and litterally screaming in agony. Ask Ice and He'll tell you, He's the one who helped me up and held me as i sobbed from the pain. And i broke a vertabrea in my back in a riding accident when i was younger. i've had back problems ever since.
Dont get me wrong. i would love nothing more then to kneel at Ice's feet for hours on end while watching TV or a movie. For me it is just something that will not happen and i have to accept that. Perhaps thats why i dont understand why some Masters have their subs do this for hours on end. To me it seems excessive and cruel. i mean the joints can only take so much pressure. But again thats just me.
Ice is well aware of my limitations. Strange isnt it that such a devout Sadist as He should be in love with a sub who can fulfill alot of her duties because of past injury. Not from lack of desire. Or maybe i'm just the balance He needs. He gives me the push i need and i force Him to rein in. Lord knows He has pushed me. i've gone farther as a sub with Him then i could have thought i was capable of. i can take more then i thought i could. i never thought i was one for pain. It seems i was mistaken. i surprised even Him one night at how much i took without using a safeword. He was shocked and i was thrilled. i had shown that i had the makings to, at least in some ways, be what He needed. i think He was proud of me too. Though i dont remember if He said so. He told me i'd gone into subspace. Something i didnt even think really exsisted. But if He says i did, then i suppose i did. i dont really remember.
Off topic a lil here. For a long time now i've been thinking of going back to school. Not full time or anything, there are alot of at home courses you can take now. Tonight i'm going to look into one option. i know Ice will support me, He's wanted me to do this for along time. i think now may be the right time. So wish me luck.
Until later.
Always His angel[IW]
Posted at 4:53 PM
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Sunday, July 23, 2006
-A New Look-
i want to thank jo for her patience with me. i wanted a new look for my blog and here it is. It's one of jo's new designs, and i am in love with it. It's a softer more feminine look i wanted. Jo took the time with me tonight to tweak it and make it my own. her unending support and patience with an html-nitwit is so appreciated. Thank you jo. your designs are simply beautiful and i am grateful to be able to use one.
Ice and i had a lovely weekend T/together. Just He and i in a quiet house. Even though W/we werent joined at the hip, W/we were still in E/eachother's company at all times. And that is sometimes all you need. Just to know that He is there, only an arm's reach away. After hardly seeing Him all week it was just what i needed. So what if what He enjoys on TV is boring to me. i play on the puter and He relaxes. W/we can talk or not as W/we want. As for last night, well thats none of your business. *snickers*
i was wandering blogland today and something struck me. Why is it that some Dom/subs have to be on top of eachother at all times? Always knowing what the other is doing and when. That would make me insane. As D says, i am in no way a doormat. Ice wouldn't allow it. He loves my fire and mouthy attitude. Ok sure maybe not all the time, but you get my meaning. He's told me on many occassions that He has me pretty much trained just the way He wants me. Given O/our living circumstances, nightly beatings and rounds of sexually charged bloodcurdling screams is not an option right now. Do i miss the chances for that, well duh. And i know He does as well, there are just some things that have to be set aside for family duty. i dont know if these other submissive have children or not, if so i would dearly love to know how they manage to kneel, take a beating and rough sex and still play soccermom on Tuesdays. Cause i sure as hell dont have the time. Between work, the kids and 2 weddings, i just dont have the time or the energy. God knows i miss that side of me and Ice.
i miss that evil gleam that gets in His eyes when He's in full Master mode. Even thinking of it makes me shiver. i get glimpses of it now and then. The odd hard smack to my backside, and not nessecarily during sex. The tweak of a nipple when He knows no one is looking. i know He misses it too. So we do what we can when we can and know that there will come a time, after the wedding when we can look into getting back into it more fully. Until that time, i'm just going to love Him as a Man, my Man. For all His quirks and moods, of which there are many. LOL
So in some ways i tip my hat to you subbies who have that kind of time on your hands. For the rest of us, we have lives to lead and children to raise and families to deal with. i'm woman enough to admit my jealousy. Or perhaps its all show for blogland. Who can say. Something to think about.
Until later.
Always His angel[IW]
Posted at 6:21 PM
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Friday, July 21, 2006
-Frustration-
i know its been awhile since i last posted. There has just been alot going on in life the last week that i havent had the time. Between a huge fight with Ice and the boys, my boss pissing me off to no end. i just havent felt like saying much. i wont go into the details as to the arguement with the boys. Needless to say after a few days they are starting to speak again. So alls well on the homefront. Although i was not impressed that i got home after being at work all day and had to clean. Not that the place was a mess, it was tidy, i just wanted to make it tydier. Vacume, dishes done, laundry started. That way there is less for me to do over the rest of the weekend and i can be a lazy slob on my 1 day off. Hehehe
As for work. Oh my gawd where do i start. my boss is a smarmy, yes smarmy, creepy fellow. He is forever trying to hit on me in the most bizarre ways. He thinks he can sign, *cringes* and will do so at the top of his tonedeaf lungs to songs he really doesnt know. Getting words wrong and inserting mine or my co-worker's names in there. i've always believed that if you dont know the words to a song. Dont fucking try sing it. It just makes you look like a total moron. i guess what drives me nuts is he thinks he's the shit. Dear god. Honestly, not if you were the last man on this planet and my very survival depended on it. i can stand being near him and do my best to avoid direct contact at all costs. He's one of those guys you ladies all know. Creepy and slithery, the type you just want to avoid but will insist on trying to talk to you no matter how often you tell them to piss off.
Its not that he's a bad boss. He's fair and all that. Its just he creeps me out.
Anyways, Ice and i pretty much have the house to O/ourselves for the weekend. Only the oldest boy to run herd over. He's always pretty good about making curfew though. Plus he isnt here very much, always out with his friends. Although it sounds great, Ice and i really only have Sunday T/together. W/we both work Saturdays, me during the day and Him later at night. But i'm not going to complain. i'll have Him with no one else around for the day and thats what matters. i see snuggles and bouts of fantastic sex. Yipee!!
So here i sit, munching baby carrots and vegging out. Pardon the pun. Not a long post tonight, but i've got alot going on. C's wedding is just around the corner so theres last minute details there. Plus for OWC i have a few webpages to design and get ready to go online. Lord help me i swore i wouldnt do this anymore. LOL...Oy!!
So it begins. Many of you may know that Ice and i are getting married next year. June 23, 2007 is the date W/we have chosen. i'm so scared it's not funny. Yes, i know its something every little girl dreams about, and i did. From the time i was 16 i started wondering what my wedding would be like. Not the man standing at my side. Just the wedding. Funny how one changes from childish dreams to gownup reality. The Man is perfect. Ok so maybe not perfect, but He's perfect for me and thats all that matters. Who wants perfect anyways? Lord knows i'm not lol.
As a child i had always dreamed about the big wedding. 200 guests, Cinderella dress, flowers everywhere, but that isnt what it will be. Dreams change and grow. W/we've chosen small, simple and elegant. He wants to be married by the water, so i'm hunting up parks and the like. At first He wanted the beach not far from here. Unfortunately, i and my attendants would have a bitch of a time moving on sand in gowns and heels. So a pond, river or creek will do just nicely. Its only going to be about 50-75 people invited. Although i am a little worried if my family will attend or not. i hope they do as regardless of their feelings for my future Husband. He is my choice and it is my wedding day. They are my family and i hope love and blood wins out.
i just pray we can keep my mother and Ice away from eachother that day. Oy!
my gown is something completely different from anything i had ever imagined. Gone is the Cinderella princess dress. In it's place is a simply stunning strapless A-line gown. Just a few beads and crystals at the waist and a simple train. i was dead set against a strapless dress. But my Maid of Honor was determine i try one on anyways. Lord love her she was right. i fell in love with it the second i put it on. The back is a corset, which her eyes lite up at the idea of lacing me into the damn thing. Oy! The gown is a size 8, but after i was laced in i swear it was a 5. i could barely breath. C thought that was hilarious. Rotten bitch, LOL.
As for my colours, i've decided on black and white with hints of deep red. Ice and the guys are all wearing mostly red kilts, so that ties the red in. And the girls will be in simple, stark black.
Roses and orcids are the theme for flowers. i adore roses, even though Ice hates them. But His favorite are orcids. So my bouquet will be blood red roses and snow white orcids. Just imagine. The scent of roses and orcids floating on the breeze by the water. OMG i get chills just thinking about it.
You know it wasnt even my idea to have a wedding at all. It was Ice who said He wanted a small wedding. i was perfectly happy going to the courthouse and a nice dinner after. All i want is to be married to Him. But i'm glad W/we're doing it this way. To share this day with those W/we love.
Now i just have to work on figuring out how to pay for it all. LOL That comes one step at a time i think. At least i have an idea of what i want and where to start. i've been planning for this since i was 16, some things may have changed. But the goal is still the same. To marry the Man i love, the One who has stood by me through thick and thin. Who has taught me to be a stronger person then i was before Him. The One who showed me i can have whatever i want and not have to put up with anyone's shit. Even His.
( X) Smoked a cigarette (X ) Drank so much you threw up ( ) Crashed a friend’s car () Stolen a car (X) Been in love (X) Been dumped () Shoplifted (X) Been laid off/fired (X) Quit your job () Been in a fist fight () Snuck out of your parent’s house (X) Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back () Been arrested - came close once though () Gone on a blind date (X) Lied to a friend (X) Skipped school () Seen someone die (X) Been to Canada ( ) Been to Mexico (X) Been on a plane ( X ) Been lost (X) Been on the opposite side of the country ( ) Gone to Washington, DC (X) Swam in the ocean (X) Felt like dying (X) Cried yourself to sleep (X) Played cops and robbers () Recently colored with crayons () Sang karaoke (while in Japan should be worth at least two X’s) (X) Paid for a meal with only coins (X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t (X) Made prank phone calls (X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose (X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue (X) Danced/Did something else in the rain (X) Written a letter to Santa Claus (X ) Been kissed under the mistletoe (X) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about (X) Blown bubbles ( ) Made a bonfire on the beach ( ) crashed a party (X) Gone roller-skating (X) Ice-skating ( ) been to europe (X) kissed (with tongue) a member of the same sex ( ) learned to surf ( )climbed a real mountain ( ) jumped out of a perfectly good airplane… while it was in the air ( ) bungee jumped ( ) hang glided ( ) had a one night stand (X) danced in a snowfall (X) made a snow angel ( X ) watched a friend break their heart over you ( ) played disc golf ( ) played regular golf ( ) played footbag golf ( ) water skiied ( ) learned to sail (X) kissed (with tongue) a member of the opposite sex ( ) been to asia (See the sang karaoke) ( ) been to australia/new zealand ( ) been the only one dancing ( ) been to africa (X) been so cold you thought you would die (I lived in Alaska, need I say more?) ( ) been to south america ( ) been to the caribbean ( ) been addicted to a drug ( ) won over an addiction ( X ) smoked weed ( ) tried cocaine ( ) tried crystal meth (X) tried Ecstacy ( ) tried heroin (X) seen a rainforest - does TV count? LOL ( ) attend(ed) church regularly ( ) feel spiritual every day Any nicknames? baby, angel, carebear Mother’s name? Janet Tattoos? not yet. Body piercing? Ears, navel How much do you love your job? Thats a loaded question! Birthplace: Montreal, Quebec, Canada Favorite vacation spot? Snow or the Ocean. Ocean What is your favorite drink? Diet Dr. Pepper Ever steal any traffic signs? no. Ever been in a police chase? no Ever been in a car accident? Yes 2 Door or 4 Door? 4 door Salad dressing? Ranch Favorite pie? Berry Favorite number? 29, cause i'm not 30 yet damnit! lol Favorite movie? Phar Lap - no laughing! Favorite holiday? One i actually get! Favorite food? Anything Ice cooks. Favorite day of the week? Sunday Favorite brand of body soap? Oil of Olay Favorite TV shows? Alias, Charmed and CSI Favorite smell? the smell of a baby just clean out of the bath. What do you do to relax? read and sleep. Message to your friends reading this? DO THIS TAG. How do you see yourself in 10 years? No clue. Contented. Auto or stick? Neither Walking or cycling? Walking. Dance or watch? Dance. Expect to live forever? Yeah right. TAGGING: who wants to play.
i apologize for not posting in a few days. *looks at D pointedly* Things here have been a little on the busy side. Work has had be running in circles for the last 3 days straight. i think i'm finally caught up on everything. i hope!
This past Saturday was Canada's Day around here. Our little bid at independance. For all the hype and craziness surrounding the US's 4th of July, i have to sit and wonder, which of us did it better. i suppose its a matter of opinion really. Personally i think we Canadians had the right of it. While we may have wished for independance, we waited and bidded our time. Instead of hundreds of thousands needless deaths. We waited for a Queen to sit the throne and voted for it. Huh. Not a life lost in that endeavor.
i had the day off and everyone else was gone for the weekend. It was just Ice and i. W/we had a wonderful day. W/we went downtown, had a drink and bite to eat. Then walked nearly all over the city. Walked and talked, about everything under the sun. It was so nice to have some time alone with Him, without someone asking for something or needing something done. Dont get me wrong, i adore O/our family, its just nice now and then to have some alone time. The sex was fantastic too. Hehehe!
Right now i'm trying to unwind from work and listen to Ice's grumblings as He wakes up from a nap. LOL. So for now i think i'll leave it at that. Just a quick note to let you know i'm still here.
